Wednesday, October 28, 2009

A tender triangle

I am trying to balance my job, my social life, and school all while preparing to get in the job market after college. Lately I have been feeling like things are getting more difficult. I realized that my relationships are getting closer, personal and professional. I am willing to commit myself more if I let these relationships go forward more deeply. This has been a big challenge in the past for me.
We will see, but I will rise to the challenge.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Viva Pinatas

I played viva pinata allll morning long. It started at 1o then Alex came downstairs, fell asleep, and I kept playing. I grew five roses and then decided to call it a quit, but when I looked up I saw the clock said 7 o clock AM. I freakin stayed up all night playing. But here is what I learned:

I really think the sour fruit is like thoughts that stay too long and turn into guilt/worry. I concentrate on pressing B to clean up my rotting fruits so that I don;t have an unclean garden. Just like in my own thought, guilt and worry do not help me at all. I can feel content today, and not worry they are just rotten fruits to clean.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Today I felt...

I feel nervous for midterms. I also realize that I am going to get whatever grade I will get regardless of whether I force myself to study or not. Anxiety is in my control, but not grades or outcomes. I learn to control my fear as I move towards the inevitable.

Have been reading Twilight series. Just finished with Eclipse. It took my three days to complete. Jacob and Bella are not meant for each other, but her and Edward are not really meant for each other. All of her family is against it, and it hurts so many for them to be together. A relationship should not come at such a large cost to one's personal life.