Show at the Continental Lofts-- PICS

3311 Elm Street, Dallas TX
These are pics from the November 13th reception!


These works are free with stipulations


This is my work down here, Hayley Juster, those up there are by artist Nelson Nance



These are people browsing etc.

Gallery Show at the Lofts

Here are photos taken pre-reception:


The bar


Taylor's work all ready to hang


Alice amongst the tools

The Encaustic Center

This place is great. We paint with hot wax and different colors. There is a show right now by Nancy Ferro. Her pieces are visible in the pictures. Check us out:

http://theencausticcenter.com/

I love this guy's website

http://sites.google.com/site/humanatlas/Home

Here are some images from it:
Check out his videos because those are good too.

Gallery Project: Contintenal lofts

Photos taken by Francisco Alvarado

In just two weeks

Going to CARLSBAD CAVERNS. Doing some hiking trails and watching the Bat Flight.

Perfect for Halloween. Camping or not is still yet to be decided.

Pretty excited so far

So far I am pretty excited about my etsy posts. http://www.etsy.com/shop/jadewolf06

I think I will take more alluring pictures. I like the photos where there is something cute or funny with it. Like this one:

http://www.etsy.com/listing/52207854/strawberry-felt-cupcake

Glad to be making art and posting it on my own site. I also love this website: www.jadexwolf.com
Now I need to learn how to add other items and make an express shopping widget. More to come later.

A Balance

I am looking for a full-time job right now, and in the process I have found that I am terrified of full-time work. I got sick right before going in to apply for a full-time job and every think pointed to the fact that I am terrified. I just can't let go the control and give my time to a company like that. It seems so wrong and I hate being somewhere that I don't want to be. I also hate missing time from spending with my family and friends and boyfriend/roommate. I just want a balance between love and work. Please help me find this today.

If Work is Like Real Life, Then What is True?

I am more and more hating to be at work lately. I just don't know what it is, and yet I am still compelled to go and to show up for all of my shifts. I think I feel I have grown out of it, but still I am not willing to find another place to work, and I will come to work for all my shifts.

Today I learned that I am still working at this job because it is teaching me something about life. If fact, it is a lesson that I need to learn. I still remember talking to one of the managers and telling her that I wanted a job that was just during the day and mostly fun, but she replied "This is real life". And I was skeptical. But work is very hard.

A second thing I learned today is that according to a co-worker, I give her something that helps her in some way every time I am at work. So she has come to like me being with her because she anticipates something helpful happening when I am there.

This is interesting. I am looking for a new job, something that will fulfill me. I have yet to admit that work is hard, and I have yet to believe that I am really as helpful as this co-worker says. On top of this, I have been talking to another co-worker, and she wants to help me with my upcoming start-up project and has her own project that she needs help with. Hm, what am I getting from this experience?

I am learning about myself. I am seeing the grueling side of work. I might be able to embrace this side of it, eventually. What is work telling me that I need to learn right now? I am open to receiving this answer.

I get more answers

Today has been a very trying day. Last night I meditated and thought about how I would make friends. At the same time, I was receiving multiple offers to hang out that I was turning down, for one reason or another, which is very unusual for me. I think I have realized that making friends last has to do with assuming that I can always make friends whenever I want. This allows me to be more resilient when presented with a plan that I am not really interested in or when I want to read quietly instead of going out. The best interactions I have are the ones that happen naturally, when I am not really trying to make plans. It just comes together. In the mean time, I get bored sometimes.

I also had a good business lunch with my fellow art class member, we are talking about starting our own business together with a few other people. We are making plans, but I am feeling very anxious. I still don't know what I am anxious over. I guess I will try to find answers about this problem.

Answers and more questions

Hello, so I received some answers from my last night's prayers. The first is that I myself am the only one who will always agree with me, and the fact that I still don't agree with my own self often tells me that I have a long way to go! Also, I received answers in a dream. I was in Costa Rica in a beautiful hotel. With old friends from high school, boys and girls. I could never talk to anyone and tried awkwardly to befriend these people whom I had never had much contact with. In the end, I am feeling alienated, and cannot decide which room to stay in. So finally in the dream I am attempting to win over two sisters who are very close in order to make one of them my own sister. I sing a duet by myself and hang it up on the wall, it resembles an art piece I have made recently. Then I wait for them to see it. I am nervous that they will think I am trying to make them like me already. Then I take a shower, and I use the shampoo of each sister, and try to decide which one I like better. Both bottles are colorful, one looks like the type of fish shape colorful bottle I used when I was a little girl. In fact, I used to sing when I was a little girl too, I wonder what happened to that? Then I find the art piece in the morning has changed, and I worry someone has removed it. But I see that a person putting up fliers was walking by and put a flier up. The girls now have no idea that I posted this mural up for them, i am very relieved. They DO notice however that I have used their shampoos, not that I am the person, but that someone has. They are curious and concerned.

I wonder why I try so hard to make friends with people who are so far in the past? I wonder why I can't relate to the little girls who are sisters. I wonder why I want to relate to them so much.

I gave away my guitar. I gave it away and then received 50 dollars. I didn't expect any money at all. But I was practicing the law of attraction, which states that anything I give, I will receive ten fold. I also decided to talk to God starting now, in these posts, as a prayer. I learned today that prayer is like talking to God and meditation is like listening, so I would like to work on my talking skills. I think I am good at listening already. Here it goes. The first post:

God, I am worried about the future. I worry that I won't get enough money in the future to stay alive. I am worried that I will risk starting my own business and fail. I worry that I am going to end up doing something I don't want to do. I want to try and make more friends. I need friends in my life. I want more constant contact. I am tired of being aloof. I want real friends, thought I am grateful for the friends I have already. I would still like a richer life with more money, more friends and more security. I would like to do a job that I love. I would like to be hiring people instead of working for someone else. I want people in my life who understand me, who get my spiritual nature, people who will talk with me and agree with me. I don't know if that is even possible. I want easy relationships. I want ALL of my relationships to be easy. I don't want a couple troubled relationships and a few easy relationships. I want a bunch of easy flowing relationships that cause me no trouble and benefit my life. I will post later on answers to these prayers gathered from meditation. Peace!

Maybe Guitar

If I ever start playing again, this song will be the first one I play
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Today I'm Fine

Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feel
Try this on, straightjacket feeling
That face is staring holes in me again
Take back now, my life you're stealing
Yesterday was hell
Today I'm fine without you

lyrics taken from All American Rejects

I want to Live in a Dump

Isn't mess another form of creativity? I want to live in a place where I find new intriguing things all the time. Our cookie cutter furniture is not exciting, in Costco and I.K.E.A. I want to live in a world of my own, not a world created by some fabulous person. I want to create my world, not buy a world that is given over to me. I want what society cringes over.

Opening your Heart

It is so hard to open my heart to only one person, the pain and hurt never disappears from the past. The only weird thing is, I think I am learning how to love more than one person at once, because my first love was disappointing, then my second and third loves were both easier to take. However, with each love, my heart swelled to a larger capability of loving. I have learned that the only way to overcome pain and suffering is to move on with my life, and to keep everyone in my heart, because in the end, I cannot turn off love, but I can stop returning to my old life and move forward to my new life. I am committed to the person I am with now, and still deeply feel for my past relationships. It is hard to close off that feeling, especially when all of it is different. But now I am learning to commit. I am finding so many rewards with this new relationship. I still battle with lost loves from the past. I find it difficult to balance my feelings, but I can move forward better when I realize that love is not ever lost. It is only filled higher and higher in your heart, and if you pay attention to the feelings they will continue to help you grow. That is what I have found.

Family Members

Honestly I seem to connect differently with each of my family members. I find myself opening up my vulnerabilities to my father and telling him what I might not feel comfortable telling my sister. I can talk to my brother in different ways that are funny and illogical. I can share feelings with my mom and I can take it easy with my sister. I just feel that the more our family connects and grows, that the more I can experience parts of my self in different ways with all of them.

Military and tolerance

In class today there was a group that presented on military families with parents and children in the military service. I found it was very sad for me hearing it all. I was swelling with emotions. And another group presented about multicultural families. It was about having tolerance for each other with different cultures or religions. I am more resolved to be tolerant about my nonreligious significant other.

Blogosphere

Went to Rock Barrel today. Got a book called "Love is In the Earth: Laying-On-of-Stones". It is all about ways to place crystals around a body so that a purpose is met.
This is on a website called crystallinks.com. Healing with crystals is an art form.

I am really drawn to amythist, jade, and black onyx lately. I need something to help me get a good job and make lots of green! any ideas? maybe a green stone will help.

Feeling Pain from Past Lives

I have been feeling pain in my stomach for a while. The other day, I realized that I have trouble being distant from people, and this is where my pain mainly comes from. I would like to have a past life therapist help me figure out what life this is from and how to fix it.

I think my stomach pain is a result of some sort of trauma, being left by a loved person or else experiencing death of a lover. I know I have dealt a lot of trauma from people leaving me or their death before mine. I would like to know who it is that made me feel this and if I have a way to resolve this relationship.